But woke up this morning with a sudden urge to log in and read previous posts about Latte. I knew it was about 1 year since she left (31 Aug 09 I now confirmed). So thought it would be good to have an update of what had happened in the year since she left, so that in a way, she could also be "updated".
After she passed, I moved into my new place as planned. No need for a doggie gate or dog proof grass. No need for logistical preps for where to place dog bowl, dog food, dog brush etc etc. During the mad days of moving, I suppose I was "glad" to a certain extent. But after all that died down and we were settled in, I distinctly remember it being too quiet. Too still. A doggie was meant to run around outside! I tried to comfort myself, reminding myself of the aforesaid "good" things about a non doggie house. No fur flying around or wafting past you when you eat, no poop or pee, no bugs.
But then again, the bugs are the worst! If latte were here...there would be no cockroaches terrorising me or keeping me hostage. no millipedes making their way across the kitchen floor in a apparent pilgrimage to who knows where. No snails that usually get picked up and tossed out before they make it half way anywhere. No Zed (big monitor lizard type) and Zee (smaller brother??) hanging out in the plants and scaring me when I water them.
Ah.. it wasnt long (maybe 6 months?) before I managed to convince the Hub to get a doggie. We actually spent a lot of time in the early part of this year, intensively researching (me) various breeds and regularly checking the SPCA and other websites for adoptions. This is because I set the rule (luckily)that I would not pay for a doggie. As much as I wanted a doggie, I knew that the Hub was not fully aware of the implications of having a dog in the house and that I needed time to make the preparations. So whilst it would have been done in a jiffy had we agreed on a breed and got out and bought one, adopting a suitable one would def take more time.
Alas, many trips to SPCA later no suitable doggie. Hub has his eyes set on a mini schnauzer, which I was ok with since its a non shedding breed.
A few months later, I told Hub we should wait. Since we are planning to start a family, I didnt want the innocent doggie to play "2nd fiddle" immediately after a new addition arrived. He agreed. Since he wasnt going to be part of the cleaning or maintenance of the doggie (I allocated tasks but knew that i would end up doing them anyway, like bathing and poop picking and doctors)
So , no doggie for now.
I also watched Hachiko the movie about the golden who waited at the train station for his master for 10 years, not knowing that his master had died of a heart attack at school. That was a real tear jerker. I had not cried like that for awhile .I remember still sobbing in the car a good half hour after the show had ended. Needless to say, Hub was a little bit worried.
I also still find it odd to go back to my parent's home and there is no doggie. 24 years at that house and there has always been a doggie, saved for the 3 days between Coco and Latte. Every time I pull up, I expect to see a tail wagging and running around, happy to see me. I guess I really took that for granted.
All in all, I guess Latte was clever (as always) and knew this would be best for her. I have been working late this year and it would not have been fair to her to spend her time at home all alone and bored to tears. I bet she is having a far better time doing her own thing now...
But remember this teh teh, I miss you every day you are not here with me! I hope you remember me and the good ol times we had exploring our neighbourhood and having fun in general. Don't worry, no other doggie will replace you and the special place you have in my heart. Kiss Kiss! Shake Hand! Good girl.... hugs.... =)
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